Hey ya'all!
This blogger over here has officially turned 20 years old! OMG!
I can't help feeling sick all over. It's the big two-OH ! I'm OH so OLD!
Pretty soon my joints will need grease and my mouth will need dentures. Time really just flies by. It seems like just yesterday that I caught a glimpse of the outside world through my mom's va-jay-jay.
*awkward pause*
Okay, fine, not to that extent but time really just goes by you without saying hi or bye.
I guess moping around about how old I'm getting ain't gonna do me any good, so I'll own it! Being 20 rawks! I look hotter and I'm definitely wiser.
=)
Last week, me and daddy had a joint birthday celebration. His birthday was on the 13th and mine on the 22nd. I had to share my spotlight with dad this year. LOL.
Here are some visuals!
Our b'day cake!
Heppi burday!
Like Father, like daughter.
His teeth are gleaming. o_O
Lens glare. Blowing the candles!
Cutting the cakey!
Wafer Flower.
Feeding the king. Haha
Prezzies!
Love the details!!
Today (22nd November), Jun took me out to One Utama to spend a whole day with me. (Thank you so much for putting aside your work for me. I always feel like I'm never good enough for you. I really don't deserve such a caring, loving and generous person. When I say I love you, I really do. =)) )
I made Jun wait for like an hour before we took off. Heh, forgive me ya! I wanted to be a DIVA for one day. PAhahaha...
So we spent the whole day together and he bought me a Reebok bag and a vintage headband. Thank you ! =) Nothing spectacular today, no parties, no throwing toilet paper all over trees, no drinking and acting all DUH.. just time, precious time with Jun. College has really taken a toll on both of us. We're like super DOOPER busy. He is going to do internship next year, which is in a few months time. Sigh, time really really flies.
In Facebook, so many people are digging up past pictures, or dare I say, memories, that reminds of the who-we-were's back in the days. Looking back I noticed one thing, an insecurity that finally has a face.
During my younger days, I've always compared my appearance with my peers. The colour of my skin, my weight, even the way I look. As all my friends would know, I do not look like Chinese as I should (considering both my parents are).
I remember that some days, I would just silently cry and frustrate at why God made me that way. It is really sad that only recently I have finally found a solution to my insecurity. I guess everyone faces it. So for those who are lucky enough to bump into this 20 year old grandma's blog,well, here's the truth, being an individual is wayyyy WAYYY better that being the same as some one else. No one said the perfect human being had to have skinny thighs or, double eye lids, or a high bridge nose, er, you get what I mean.
Being you is just wayyy cooler.
Okay, enough of the digress! Anyhoo, today was a quiet kind of a blast. =) I enjoyed being 20 with the people I love most. Thank you for making me feel special. Love you guys loads!!! =)
Well, here are some 'visually exciting' images of me posing for self-love pictures! LOL.. Just deal with it! *tongues*
Me and babes.
Sugar and I.
Hello WORLD!
Being Artsy Smartsy. LOL
As cliche' as it may be, the truth still bears witness.
Everyone wants to have a sense of perfection, everyone, in their own way.
Signing off! TATA
Will be back to write more updates when something interesting comes up. =D
+.And that was that.+ written @1:28:00 AM
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Friday, November 20, 2009
Today is a good day for Updatesss!! I am going into update overload mode! Haiyah! Be prepared people!
It's been one month plus since I've enrolled in PJCAD and I'm loving it! I'm very blessed coz' my classmates are all superb! Anyhoo, I will get back to that detail later!
Now, Update no. 1!
It's been awhile but I have not blogged about this yet. I have officially bought myself a computerrr! I am no more the cavewoman I was! Hallelujah! No more burning fire so I can signal Mei Yen, no more bribing the pigeons with Gardenia crumbs and I can play computer gamess! YAY ME! (I'm still this darn excited even after a month from the date of purchase) *giggles*
Tadaa! It's the Dell Inspiron 545 Desktop! It's got good reviews, overall rating of 4.8 out of 5.0. I am totally satisfied! The package comes with a HD Wide Screen monitor, speakers, keyboard, optical mouse and the CPU! It's very silent, no attrocious motor sound can be heard! It also comes with original Windows Vista 64 bit. This one is definitely a keeper! I paid RM 2762 for it which is a definite steal! Ouch on my wallet but Yay for me~ XD
Now as you see, it is sitting majestically on my crampy study desk! lol.
UPDATE NO. 2 !!
College has been super fun despite a little drawbacks (stress and limited sleep time)! I agree the people here are fun-er.. At work, my colleagues were all adults so less fun stuff.. lol.
Today! Today was such a sweet event! These people actually planned a surprise birthday party for me and Mary!
I really did not expect it. First, it was a normal day in Mr. Travis 3D class, then suddenly, the class went quiet and many people left. I still didn't get it until Daiz and Han pulled us into a room and then "SURPRISEE"! My birthdays were usually on a school holiday so I never got to celebrate it this way. I am so uberly touched! Love you guys loads! *hugs whole class*
Me dancing to the Happie Burfdae song. lol. I look constipated.
Shucks, you guys made me all red. *shifts feet*
Mary and I during the cake cutting ceremony.. lol
I wonder what we were smiling to?
Sweet sweet Mei being the cake handler.
I was in lalaland until Forestya woke me up into a nightmare! She smashed oily cake on my face!
Candid shot of Mei! :D
A good friend is the kind of friend that will laugh their eyes out when cake gets smashed into your face. HHAHAHA. Example given as below! Take a look at the criminal's face!!
but in the end, she helped me wipe laa.. Thank you Mei *bats eyelashes*
Thank you Tia!!
Update No. 3
I finally got my long awaited BB Cream by BRTC! Jun and I bought the Jasmine Water BB cream. Well, it really does what it says! I'm sublimely satisfied! *beams*
+.And that was that.+ written @11:19:00 PM
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Saturday, November 07, 2009
Howdy Doody ya'all!
It has been about a month since I started college and one thing I've learned is that art students really have to spend a lot of money. Dang. I'm so broke from buying materials, I think I'm going to beg for money at Chow Kit soon. For those who know me, please har, give a little more tips ok?In return, I'll post up pictures of my projects. PJCAD is a really good design school, so if anybody lives in Cheras like me and wants a affordable and near-by college, PJCAD is the place for you. The lecturers here are really awesome too!
Eventhough it has been only about a month that Im attending this college, but I have truly learnt a lot! I really like it here. =) My classmates are awesome too, although, sometimes I think they look at me like Im some freak. Then again, everyone I hang with looks at me like Im some freak. Well, everyone except Mei Yen & Ai Sie, coz' they're both freaks like me. Keh Keh.
Hmm. Hmm.. what else.. AH! Boyfriend has decided to wear braces despite having already perfectly lined teeth! But it's for health purposes so I won't comment much. I think I'm going to have ulcer after kissing him.. lol. So for these 2 years time, I'm only going to kiss him on the cheek! =P
For my first semester, I'm having 4 subjects which are, English for Communication, Art history, Fundamental Drawing and 3D studies. I tell you, despite it only being 4 measely subject BUT the time used just to complete JUST ONE PUNY assignment takes forever. Now I truly understand what Rachel Hoo said about art students turning nocturnal. Just yesterday, I slept at 5 am after sitting around for like 8 hours just painting my paper clay project. Gosh, I feel soo tireddd and I am losing weight already. College assignments are tough but enjoyable compared to form 6. Form 6 is waaaay more boring and we used a lot of memorisation. EW.
Somehow, taking art seems just right for me. I really have no regrets. Even with all the pernicious backaches and time consumption, I just feel really satisfied when I do my projects. Especially Fundamental Drawings and 3D studies. I loveeee!!
Things happen for a reason, God made it that way. Throughout my life's journey, I've experienced so many things, both good and bad as have everyone else. Sometimes comparing can be a good thing especially when it makes you appreciate life more.
Here are some pictures to spruce up this post! Most of them are my project pictures. =)
+.And that was that.+ written @1:36:00 AM
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
Auntie Chong passed away 2 days after the diagnostic. My parents and I attended the funeral yesterday. I felt puzzled throughout the whole procession. They did it in the Taoism manner. There was music playing, some had a happy tune to it and others a little sad. When they had their prayers and the holding of the joss stick, I was told not to follow any of it. Daddy said we couldn't do those things as a Christian.
Despite telling mom's family members that we weren't supposed to, at one point, it seemed like they were trying to "deceive" us into doing it. There was one prayer, where they kept on saying that it was nothing, something just to pay respect for the dead. Me and mom was so blur we stood on the mat thing. Daddy quickly called us back. The people standing there actually had to bow down and hold joss stick. Mom's relatives looked disgusted at us. I feel odd because I thought they had to respect our decision not to partake in any of their prayers. =(
Anyway, the tension eased a little later on.
I hated seeing the body that way. Lifeless.
When I went to see the body, my heart beat so fast, I thought I was having a heart attack.
I hated seeing someone dead. =(
I think I was more scared than hateful.
Death scares me. Dying scares me.
I know my parents have told me countless times that dying has nothing to be afraid of, and that God will take care of us. However, the finality and facing the unknown always sends shivers down my spine.
I have this fear, and I must get over it.
After the body was cremated & the rituals were over, we had lunch with Auntie Chong's family and mom's family. Uncle Heng, although smiling had this sad gleam in his eyes. One can practically feel his pain through his eyes. He was smiling, but only as a facade to the wound that had freshly scarred him. I wish I could reach down and tell him that everything is going to be okay, but I just couldn't. All my life, I was told non-Christians would go to the place of everlasting fire. =(
Mui Sean once told me an analogy, she said, " Just imagine your loved ones (non-believers) burning in a house, would you run in to save them? or just watch as they burn to death?"
My answer would definitely be save them, but what if they refuse to let me? =(
It is always a sad thing for me to see someone pass away without accepting Jesus, especially when that person has done so much good in their lives.
You may be "rich" and "wealthy" but if you don't have the passport, you cannot possibly reach your destination.
After talking to Raymond (Chong's brother in law), I found out that another two of Auntie Chong's sisters have been diagnosed with cancer. One with stage 1 breast cancer and the other with final stage lung cancer. How tragic can this get ? All at the same time. =(
+.And that was that.+ written @10:23:00 PM
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Monday, October 05, 2009
I can't say stopping work at L'Oreal gives me a sense of relief. I feel like it is such a waste to leave people I care about behind. Mui Sean has been a real inspiration to me. She has been one of the most kindest, and generous friend I have known. I feel really blessed to have met her. I've seen her go through tough times and have tried to be as supporting as I can. When you're really close to someone, and you see that they are hurting, you will feel the strain to try to put that familiar smile back on her face. I really do miss her the most. =(
It is kind of ugly how God puts death there to remind of how important it is to cherich on another. How near death is to each and every one of us. The process of watching someone go through a horrid time like this sometimes just makes you feel helpless. After a long week of absense, you notice that the person has puffy eyes and the strong sense that they're really hurting. =/ It was really horrible seeing Mui Sean go through the passing of her sister in law. I felt a sense of deja vu', like this has happened before. Seeing my close friend go through this. =(
Her whole family lives together. Her sister in law is only 35 years old. She left behind a husband, a 3 year old kid and a 1 day old baby. She passed away due to heart failure. She succumbed to a hole in her heart. She left without saying a word. So tragic.
Now, my auntie has been diagnosed with cancer & doctor has told her she has only one week to live. That must really be traumatic, someone telling you that you only have a week to live. =( So many people who would love to have extra years added just so they can be with their loved ones, cannot attain it. And what are we doing? Why are we taking for granted what others who deserve it can only wish for?
Losing someone sucks, so why waste a day fighting with someone you love? Why waste your time trying to make someone else's life miserable? Why waste a day sulking and venting out anger on the people that will always be there in your neediest times? Why wait till death comes?
Living life to the fullest (in the right way), learning to love people for who they are, forgiving each other, treating others right.. I know this is how my life should be. I have to start now,because if not now, then when?
+.And that was that.+ written @8:38:00 PM
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Monday, September 07, 2009
Just something random.
September marks a very pivotal period in my life. This is my transition point from working life to college life. I wonder whether culture shock will make an impact on me. I can feel sadness slowly seeping into me. I just don't want to face it yet, not now.
Hey Rachel Hoo, if I ever need help in my Graphic Design, I'm going straight to you! My sifu! =)
Nee bought me a fedora. He chose this design.
Goofing around.
Did my hair at Curzon, in Damansara perdana.
My hair do cost me a whopping RM 245. Ouchies. I'm going to eat bread for a month. But bread for a month is worth it! I have gained my self-confidence.
I've been thinking a lot about what a friend revealed to me.
It really isn't fair, just judging a person by what he/she blogs. Blogs are just avenues for people's feelings, and sometimes, feelings can be ugly. I admit that sometimes I am not able to control my feelings and I do blab out the most silliest of things. However, I cannot always apologize for whatever people think is wrong because I still do think standing up for myself and people I care about is important. And it doesn't mean that every time a blogpost comes up many times with an angry tone to it means I'm some enraged woman!
I'm actually a very nice person *blushes*. Ok fine, ask my friends if you don't believe me!
And another thing, this is what my blog is for, purely for expressing my feelings. My blog is something very personal to me. *hugs unhuggable blog*
Important fact! when you really get to know a person, there are certain facts that will probably irk you!
Working in an environment full of adults taught me something. The more emotionally worked up you get over work, or something that's insignificant, or even a misunderstanding with someone, shows how immature an individual is. Being mature in a way, is being able to control negative emotions and convert it into the positive. I want to reach that level where they are at, that sense of being in-control in a situation, independent. Unlike me, my Boss is so calm when a problem surfaces. A direct opposite of me, I'm panicky and kan cheong. Daddy says he was like me too, and that, time will change that fact. I really do hope so.
I want to be matured emotionally. =)
I really do respect the people I work with. They've been really accomodating, although there are occasional misunderstandings.
Okies, signing off! God Bless you all. =)
P.s: I miss you Mei Yen, where are you? =(
I've been thinking a lot about what a friend revealed to me.
It really isn't fair, just judging a person by what he/she blogs. Blogs are just avenues for people's feelings, and sometimes, feelings can be ugly. I admit that sometimes I am not able to control my feelings and I do blab out the most silliest of things. However, I cannot always apologize for whatever people think is wrong because I still do think standing up for myself and people I care about is important. And it doesn't mean that every time a blogpost comes up many times with an angry tone to it means I'm some enraged woman!
I'm actually a very nice person *blushes*. Ok fine, ask my friends if you don't believe me!
And another thing, this is what my blog is for, purely for expressing my feelings. My blog is something very personal to me. *hugs unhuggable blog*
Important fact! when you really get to know a person, there are certain facts that will probably irk you!
Working in an environment full of adults taught me something. The more emotionally worked up you get over work, or something that's insignificant, or even a misunderstanding with someone, shows how immature an individual is. Being mature in a way, is being able to control negative emotions and convert it into the positive. I want to reach that level where they are at, that sense of being in-control in a situation, independent. Unlike me, my Boss is so calm when a problem surfaces. A direct opposite of me, I'm panicky and kan cheong. Daddy says he was like me too, and that, time will change that fact. I really do hope so.
I want to be matured emotionally. =)
I really do respect the people I work with. They've been really accomodating, although there are occasional misunderstandings.
Okies, signing off! God Bless you all. =)
P.s: I miss you Mei Yen, where are you? =(
+.And that was that.+ written @10:18:00 PM
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Saturday, August 15, 2009
I received an e-mail from my boss containing a very touching poem. Very inspiring, love it much!
It was written by Davic L. Weatherford.
S L O W D A N C E:
Have you ever watched kids
on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down
Don’t dance so fast
Time is short
The music won’t last
Do you run through each day
On the fly
When you ask “How are you?”
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done,
do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
running through your head?
You’d better slow down
Don’t dance so fast
Time is short
The music won’t last
Ever told your child,
We’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
‘Cause you never had time
To call and say “Hi”?
You’d better slow down
Don’t dance so fast
Time is short
The music won’t last
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift….Thrown away…
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.
+.And that was that.+ written @10:24:00 PM
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Monday, August 10, 2009
I've discovered that work related stress can sometimes manifest into something really ugly. At work, I had to suck up to all the stress like an overworked sponge. I really wonder sometimes, how some people are able to stay calm and so put together. The only thing I look forward to are my friends there and cooking (Yes, people we take turns to cook everyday!) . Other than that, all else seems to be coming on to me like doom's day. I've become snappy to people who don't deserve it, my family. I did not release it in the best possible way, but instead hurt the very people who loved me most.
Today, I discovered shopping wasn't retail therapy at all, because at the end of the day, guilt started to seep in. I had more worries and anxiety. Material things didn't make me feel completely at peace. I felt only a drop of temporary relief. The more I stopped spending, the more I started to save. Saving felt so much better. =) It truly does. Saving money made me feel in control of my decisions. Like thread spinning into a beautiful fabric, things started to make sense. I've been doing this all wrong.
I shouldn't have let this ugly emotional baggage bring me down. Happiness was surrounding me, I just needed to look a little closer. I guess one of the purposes of living is not to take things for granted, especially people that love you the most and who would be there for you in a single heartbeat. To be happy with the little things that we already have is the best feeling one can have.
Things I appreciate:
- My mom, for fetching me everyday and for teaching me how I should not feel insecure and lackluster.
- My dad, for always standing up for me when I couldn't stand up for myself. He taught me life is a journey, but it's the destination that's important.
- My brothers, for teaching me that patience is a virtue! and that beating boys to a pulp once in a while is good for their soul.
-My "little one" a.k.a Sugar, for teaching me the definition of being responsible.
-My friends, for teaching me all sorts. I take all of them as an open story book, each one different, not one the same.
- My Larrie ballet flats that have kept my feet from the nasty gravel and tar. Due to excessive usage, my Larries have been sent to the shoe doctor once. =(
- My camera, for assisting me in taking nice kodak moments! =D
-My trusty handphone!
I love doing lists of what I appreciate in life. It makes me feel so very blessed! Rachel is all smiles again. Tomorrow will be a better day, I shall not let stress turn me into a monster! Hurrah !
+.And that was that.+ written @10:29:00 PM
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
Everyone, please do not leave me anywhere near a shopping mall! I'll go beserk!
I have a freaking shoe fetish! (ask Suet Lai, she and Tiffany had to literally drag me out of Vincci shoe store.) I went into MOD/TSC (in Jusco Cheras Selatan) and came out with a pair of fringe boots! I just love the hippie and boho chic look. I have been eyeing a those pair of boots since God knows when! I just LOVE them!
I wanna be just like pocahontas! =)
Love them! =D
+.And that was that.+ written @7:39:00 PM
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Friday, July 10, 2009
There is some finality when it comes to death. You ain't gonna see that person no more. I may be one of the millions that is talking about Micheal Jackson's death, but one cannot deny the fact that MJ has made history. Though sometimes a little over odd and weird, he still was an icon, a benchmark for many artistes, a trendsetter, an inspiration, an influence and even a great dad.
I bet if anyone that has watched his memorial aired on TV, the part where his daughter spoke about him surely would have triggered some sort of bleary eyed spell.
Thank you for paving the way for african americans in the music industry. Thank you for showing the spirit of discrimination that ' it don't matter if you're black or white'. Thank you for showing the world how grabbing your crotch is ok and how plastic surgery will ruin your nose. But truly thank you for making it fun being able to watch your performances especially your dancing (my brother has learnt your moonwalk). =)
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Updates
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7th of July was me and Jun's 2nd anniversary. =) Another wonderful year has passed, and I still think he's the only one for me. Happy 2nd year anniversary honey! Love you loads.
Jun's birthday (27th June) was a blast, me and his mom planned a surprise party for him. That little grumpy old potato of a boyfriend fell for every trick in the book. He is as gullible as he looks! =P Sorry hun, that certainly has to be said. I love you and I hope you like your presents! May we have many more happy years!
love u kuaci face!
And dear God, please grant me the patience and understanding to stand thehis workaholic cum perfectionist behaviour. little kinks and flaws of his character & vice versa for darling boyfriend as well. =D I know I can be little off sometimes. Sorry! You probably already know how I am..
Jun's birthday (27th June) was a blast, me and his mom planned a surprise party for him. That little grumpy old potato of a boyfriend fell for every trick in the book. He is as gullible as he looks! =P Sorry hun, that certainly has to be said. I love you and I hope you like your presents! May we have many more happy years!
love u kuaci face!
And dear God, please grant me the patience and understanding to stand the
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Mei Yen and Ai Sie have left for their local Unis far away from KL, so basically I have no buddies to go karaoke with.
Dr. Suet Lai came back and we had a nice time catching up along with Tiffany.
Dr. Suet Lai came back and we had a nice time catching up along with Tiffany.
As the days for me to stay in Loreal is getting shorter, I can't help but feel a little scared. I will have to be forced to bid farewell to very nice people very soon. It is truly an experience, working in Loreal. The people there told me that if you can make it out of Loreal in one piece, you can work anywhere. Why? Because working in Loreal is truly torturous (especially these past two months). I will not be sad that I'm leaving this place, but it will definitely be the people that I will miss the most. I been very blessed lah, meeting so many precious people. I am truly blessed.
+.And that was that.+ written @10:51:00 PM
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